Sign of life. Not in a great place right now but I’m still f...

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2026-05-19T17:10:50Z

Sign of life. Not in a great place right now but I’m still fighting. Good days and bad days.

Got some additional pregnancy complications so hoping for some clarity in the coming weeks.

All I know for sure is I have another big surgery with a multidisciplinary team in August. Hard to mentally move on from the first one when it’s lingering over my head.

I keep having nightmares about the ER and waking up tied down and intubated, so my sleep has been shit.

I can’t stop worrying that all this physical trauma affected the baby.

After many tears I think I’ve finally become numb, and I think numb is the only way I’m going to get through the next 12 weeks, if not longer.

Idk what else to say. I’m so grateful both of us are alive. I’m just having a hard time adjusting to this new reality.

Much love 🧡 CB

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