Having faith opens up a whole new pantheon of problems. For...

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2026-03-18T21:58:25Z

Having faith opens up a whole new pantheon of problems. For example, believing while at the same time having a crisis of faith and the feeling of desperation and guilt that comes from the profound existential dissonance of the experience.

“I believe but why is this happening to me?!”

The feeling of knowing He could make it otherwise but doesn’t all the while the lesson of the experience is out of reach.

You wonder, why can’t I be like the Centurion whose faith was so great that Jesus healed his servant with a word from a distance.

Matthew 8:5-13

I wish I could inhabit the mind of that Centurion and feel the faith he so readily accessed.

In the meantime, I’ll pray on it.

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